the earth is flat... again...
I can't sleep. Again. Depressed. Again. So here I am, again. Hopelessness. Pointlessness. And that general lack of motivation. Flatness. Emptiness. A feeling of burnt-outness. Everything's just too hard. Even blogging. And yet it also feels like self-pity. And laziness. Am I just a no-hoper? A loser? Too piss-weak to get up off my arse and kick my pathetic life into some sort of shape? Should someone just put me out of my misery? We all know I'm too gutless to do it myself.
Happy pills. Are they the answer? I keep reading about people going onto happy pills and then a few months later topping themselves or committing some kind of mass murder. It scares me.
Others seem to behave like they're on "complacency drugs". I knew this guy who was a really excellent social commentator till he went on Prozac. Since then he's been so chemically blissed-out it seems he can't see anything wrong with society anymore. It's like he had a chemical lobotomy.
I dunno...
How many times will I bore you with tales from the bottom of the depression pit? How much of this can you stand? Why do you bother?
Whatever you do, don't feel like you have to comment - I'm just ranting...
Happy pills. Are they the answer? I keep reading about people going onto happy pills and then a few months later topping themselves or committing some kind of mass murder. It scares me.
Others seem to behave like they're on "complacency drugs". I knew this guy who was a really excellent social commentator till he went on Prozac. Since then he's been so chemically blissed-out it seems he can't see anything wrong with society anymore. It's like he had a chemical lobotomy.
I dunno...
How many times will I bore you with tales from the bottom of the depression pit? How much of this can you stand? Why do you bother?
Whatever you do, don't feel like you have to comment - I'm just ranting...
posted by The Editor at
12:53 AM
5 Comments:
Nothing wrong with a good rant! Vomit for the mind, or something...
Thanks for that image, Guy...
LOL
The earth isn't flat all the time, Gerry. I hope the mountains and deep seas reappear any time now. Hold on, hold out, et cetera. They'll be back.
No doubt Guy, you bags first go at the bits of carrot?
Yes, Deirdre, it will get better. It always has in the past. And then it always got worse again...
If I had my shit together I wouldn't read a blog like this one. I'd be too busy screwing someone in order to get rich. That's how it's done, isn't it?
I told you it was hopeless...
recent media about 'people on antidepressants kill themselves' irritated the shit outta me. read my lips: they were depressed FIRST. happy people don't go on the medication. happy people don't end it all.
I think maybe the suicides of people on SSIs occur when a tolerance has developed. the person thinks: 'shit I am on the drug but I still feel bad so there is no hope'.
changing brand or strength may be the answer. it's no big deal.
I think blog writing and commenting can help get one 'outside one's self'. works for me. peace and love.
Sorry, Brownie, but I don't trust doctors, shrinks or the drug companies when it comes to substances which alter "brain chemistry".
Rather than do a lengthy reply here explaining why, I'll do a new post on this sometime soon. OK?
Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words. Much appreciated.
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