Nothing in this blog can be believed. If you think that anything in this blog is true or factual, you'll need to verify it from another source. Do you understand? No? Then read it again, and repeat this process, until you understand that you cannot sue me for anything you read here. Also, having been sucked into taking part in the mass-murder of more than 3 million Vietnamese people on behalf of U.S. Big Business "interests", I'm as mad as a cut snake (and broke) so it might be a bit silly to try to sue me anyway...

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

back again...

Ok, I'm back again. I've still got things I want to say. But I'm going to try to do it differently. More on that later... After you've stopped laughing...


Blogger Ron said...

Welcome back, Gerry.

"After you've stopped laughing.."

I will never laugh at you, old son.

May 06, 2005 7:40 AM  
Blogger Gerry said...

Ahh... comments are working again. Good!

Theo, I was genuinely fed up. In fact, since you bring it up, here's the reply I gave to people who had emailed me asking why I had quit:

There were several factors.

(1) I had offended (or felt I had) some readers and two of them had shut their blogs down. I was feeling guilty. I felt like I was (at least partly) to blame.

(2) Even though I was getting heaps of traffic, I was getting no new commenters and the number of commenters had in fact dwindled. I felt rejected and not good enough which is ironic and paradoxical, I know (see next item).

(3) I felt thatI had become offensive and boring. The content was predictable. Same old shit and badly written at that. I thought about changing style and content but found I didn't know how to write other than how I write. I'm a negative, cynical, doomsayer and even I am sick of who I am but I have no inclination tho change that.

(4) I was only preaching to the converted and therefore I was not really making a difference at all. Add to this the fact that I'm getting a stronger and stronger vibe that nothing will ever defeat or ethicalise capitalism and that it will eat itself (and the human race in the process) quite soon, it seems futile to rage against the machine. Hopelessness had set in (again).

(5) I also felt I was being quite hypocritical. I was ranting against what our modern consumer lifestyle is doing to the world, and I'm a defininte participant. I rant about the evils of vilifying political/philosophical “enemies” and then go right out and vilify them with my ranting.

Brownie, I'm still having trouble. I don't know how I will go, but we'll see, eh?

Ron, thanks. Laughing? Well, Theo may have been laughing. He does (did?), after all, hang around at "various scenes" where laughing at me was considered appropriate if not de rigueur (and he's getting damn close to having his comments erased in here, I can tell you.)

May 06, 2005 8:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gerry Gerry Gerry - guys blogs worry too much about making a difference. Today we know that Blair has been returned, as was Bush and as was our own little bastard. Who ARE these bloody voters? and let's open another bloody bottle of wine. nothing we do makes a difference. phuck em all.

May 07, 2005 7:43 PM  
Anonymous brownie said...

that was me brownie cab sauv, who should be running this country. it would be so good.

May 07, 2005 7:47 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Welcome back. It's your blog, infused with your personality, you do what you want.

I trust your ethical sense. You won't use your toy to belt the other kids in our collective playpen.

- barista

May 08, 2005 4:48 AM  
Blogger Gerry said...

Ahh Brownie, you are right of course. But you fail to fully understand the nature of my pathetic existence. Being an anxiety-ridden depressive recluse whose only semblance of social interactivity is this blog, I need to worry too much and I need to kid myself that I could be saving the world from itself. And in true psycho-dork fashion, I have become dependent on my blog. How sad is that?

I blog therefore I am...

And you metion the cab sauv when I have been off the wagon for a couple months now. What a good boy I am.

If you were running the country... Funny you should say that because for a while now I have been threatening to start another blog called "Dictator of Australia" in which I would do "When I become dictator of this country (blah blah blah)" rants.

Barista, "You won't use your toy to belt the other kids in our collective playpen." Well, before I went away to do the nonviolence thingie, I was starting to use this toy to belt the other kids in the playpen. Now that I've learned a bit more about how violence and aggression creeps into communication and I realise that this is not what I want to do, I'll hopefully blog less attackingly. All it does is create bad karma all round (or so the buddhists and Quakers say).

I'd better stop now before the mass-puking starts...

May 08, 2005 10:48 AM  

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